we need to be deconstructing our identities

  1. Lift and confinementThe crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

It Will Get Lighter

you know who you are. no more time, not like

1

. way too specific.


is this you as well

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

plato

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

i really havent

lol

was it worth it

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

so at the end

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

i love it here

its performative

what do you think my name is

But seriously, thank you, Jack

like first name

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

wait what is that