Worse Lift

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

I am below everything.

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

it is hopeful

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

autonomy of learning

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

Rain, starting

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

or never left

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

your feed looks like my tumblr

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

magnetisation/form

all that is to say

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

what do you think my name is

we can only engage in such a way

feel you

its good

whats your name?

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk