something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
"Put a blanket."

currently

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

it is hopeful

isaac

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

its good

lol

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

what do you mean

really i want the internet