but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

Today I felt like starting

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Lift Analysis

really i want the internet

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

"Put a blanket."

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

as in

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

i see a website

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

Can I see

propensity within someone

I am below everything.

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

magnetisation/form

Better Lift

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49