December 2025

i really havent

ahnaf abrar

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

is everyoneback on tumblr now

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

...

i want to do that too

no longer writing in the third person

Actual born-Londoners aren't LARPing like this, they sold their shite family home for a million pounds and moved to Malaga years ago. They have their culture and they've taken it elsewhere.

have you read

I Write Goodbye Letter

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

Can I see

i am quite illiterate on producing technology
and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

we need to be deconstructing our identities

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

ion

It's loud and he's gone deaf in one ear, so I don't think he's really hearing anything I'm trying to say. We're both pretty drunk too. It's making for a kind of surreal interactive Business Insider YouTube video of a conversation. He talks, waits for my response, sees my mouth moving but doesn't hear my words, then he imagines something in their place, and replies to that. At least I don't really have to do anything but drink and mime and listen to a lot of bullshit fake gangster talk, being an actor, boxing, the old days, blah blah blah.

Better Lift

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.