its good

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

idk

send your tumblr

no longer writing in the third person

is this you as well

ahnaf abrar

i really havent

i see a website

i have read not even 1 book

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

that looks like my instagram account

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

and the fake qualifier

Today I felt like starting

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

lol yea

so the method has to be autonomous

i love it here

have you read

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter