It Will Get Lighter

December 2025

feel you

plato

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

was it worth it

which magnetises chains of pins

bro i read nothing in my life

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

we need to be deconstructing our identities

I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.

its good short few pages

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

and the fake qualifier

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

i was tempted to lie about my name

ion

Another Frenchman pushes through the crowd to join him. He's an events organiser who I'd met earlier, and he's holding a large box wrapped in a bin bag. They're the fireworks he'd smuggled in from France the night before. They're Industrial Grade, whatever that means for fireworks.

A roll of 50s is one of the items he dumps onto my table during the search. Of course it is. He asks if I'm a delivery boy or a setter or this or that diamond related job. I keep saying no, I'm enjoying hearing all of these new words. Eventually I tell him that I work in film, which is kind of true. He asks where I'm filming. I'm not filming. He tells me that I can't be that good at it then. He then tells me that he made a film once, in the 80s. It was called Pimlico Rats.

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

sorry i am texting like a slav

isaac

My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

2 (actually index). two is company

Today I felt like starting

magnetises a pin

There is a pretty persistent ambient hate in England, a lot of people say vile shit about Muslims or immigrants or whatever, but in my experience most people aren't actual white supremacists. They have a black friend who they get a beer with. One of the good ones. Etc.