theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i really havent

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

its good

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

December 2025

feel you

i dont understand magnetisation

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

magnetisation/form

all that is to say

the site i am dreaming

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.