no longer writing in the third person

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

It Will Get Lighter

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

Rain, starting

much more tactility

as in

i dont understand magnetisation

December 2025

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

I Write Goodbye Letter

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there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

i was tempted to lie about my name

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.
part of an old note. It will get lighter.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

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Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

but really the thing should be autonomous

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

Slug

2 (actually index). two is company