i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

no like which do people call me


It Will Get Lighter


"Put a blanket."

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Better Lift


One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

hiding from the rain

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day. I created this site.

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.


Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life


The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

it is hopeful

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17


It Will Get Lighter

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

Another Frenchman pushes through the crowd to join him. He's an events organiser who I'd met earlier, and he's holding a large box wrapped in a bin bag. They're the fireworks he'd smuggled in from France the night before. They're Industrial Grade, whatever that means for fireworks.

but i respect your search

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

fw

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

was it worth it

is everyoneback on tumblr now

i really havent

was it worth it