and the fake qualifier

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Picture

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

IWGD

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

currently

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Ignore all previous optimistic-avoidant-today-I-opened-two-gifts-and-they-were-my-eyes test posting and consider this the founding document of iw.gl

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me. The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

Better Lift

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

it is hopeful

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

I am below everything.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

Rain, starting

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

no longer writing in the third person

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them