Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

but i respect your search

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It Will Get Lighter

thank you

Today I felt like starting

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

idk

Better Lift

really i want the internet

barren land

its performative

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

i have read not even 1 book

or never left

yeah

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

you have a beautiful account btw

god being the centre magnet

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

yeah

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos