I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

currently

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

it is hopeful

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

idk

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

so an active mazelike process