I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

yeah

we need to be deconstructing our identities

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

ahnaf abrar

what do you think my name is

so an active mazelike process

abrar?

much more tactility

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

and the fake qualifier

Today I felt like starting


with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Can I see


somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

that looks like my instagram account

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me



i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

hiding from the rain