all that is to say

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i was tempted to lie about my name

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

abrar?

was it worth it

i love it here

its performative

plato

ahnaf abrar

much more tactility

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

so at the end

which magnetises chains of pins

Slug

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

It Will Get Lighter

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

we need to be deconstructing our identities

December 2025

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

its good

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

i dont understand magnetisation

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

no longer writing in the third person

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59