the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
Better Lift
no longer writing in the third person
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting
its good
like first name
so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged
Thank you, Jack
god "possessing" artists "possessing" people
not their contents
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
Today I felt like starting
hiding from the rain
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46