that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
you cannot feed someone truth
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate
so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged
I am below everything.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
Thank you, Jack
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
like first name
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
.i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike
abrar?
was it worth it
brb i will read and reply sincerely
what do you think my name is
we need to be deconstructing our identities
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.