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i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

feel you

your feed looks like my tumblr

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and the fake qualifier

ahnaf abrar

ion

barren land

the site i am dreaming

isaac newton

or never left

...

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.


i was tempted to lie about my name

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.


Pimlico Rats

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

Another Frenchman pushes through the crowd to join him. He's an events organiser who I'd met earlier, and he's holding a large box wrapped in a bin bag. They're the fireworks he'd smuggled in from France the night before. They're Industrial Grade, whatever that means for fireworks.

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

It Will Get Lighter