we need to be deconstructing our identities

like first name

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and the fake qualifier

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

all that is to say

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

was it worth it

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Slug

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i really havent

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feel you

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

i was tempted to lie about my name

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okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i really havent

have you read

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

the site i am dreaming

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

bro i read nothing in my life

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

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i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls