Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

i was tempted to lie about my name

much more tactility

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

so an active mazelike process

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

i have read not even 1 book

fw

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

that looks like my instagram account

Better Lift


division of reality is straying away from it

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life


bro i read nothing in my life

so the method has to be autonomous

Worse Lift

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

wait what is that

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

was it worth it

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i really havent