Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.i dont understand magnetisation
i really havent
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
what do you mean
Today I felt like starting
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
it is hopeful
lol yea
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
December 2025
propensity within someone
as in
amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting