the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Rain, starting

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Today I felt like starting

Can I see

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

yeah

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

ahnaf abrar

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

so at the end

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

thank you

abrar?

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

as in

i love it here

FOUNDING DOCUMENT