part of an old note. It will get lighter.

December 2025

was it worth it

and the fake qualifier

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

bro i read nothing in my life

this will be about a slug

ahnaf abrar

magnetises a pin

no longer writing in the third person

i really havent

i understand

isaac

i dont understand magnetisation

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

really i want the internet

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

which magnetises chains of pins

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Thank you, Jack

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

"Put a blanket."

kind of mythopoesis