The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
like first name
so the method has to be autonomous
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
ahnaf abrar
wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me
i want to do that too
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
or never left
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
December 2025
idk
division of reality is straying away from it
you have a beautiful account btw
i love it here