ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
currently
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
no longer writing in the third person
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
hiding from the rain
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
division of reality is straying away from it
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