wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to
me
Today I felt like starting
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
you have a beautiful account btw
no longer writing in the third person
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise
this is going to be awful.
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
brb i will read and reply sincerely
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty
cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
It Will Get Lighter
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about...
whatever
