I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

no longer writing in the third person

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

I am below everything.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

It Will Get Lighter

you cannot feed someone truth

in a post. I want to be remembered

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this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

lol yea

It Will Get Lighter

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

have you read

propensity within someone

plato

"Put a blanket."

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

i understand

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

what do you think my name is

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

lol

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.