After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
autonomy of learning
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
all that is to say
as in
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike
no longer writing in the third person
hiding from the rain
its performative
you have a beautiful account btw
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
but i respect your search
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13