After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

ahnaf abrar

all that is to say

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

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Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

i want to do that too

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

magnetisation/form

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

we need to be deconstructing our identities

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

no longer writing in the third person

you cannot feed someone truth