i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

is this you as well

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

you cannot feed someone truth

not their contents

as in

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

its performative

that looks like my instagram account

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

much more tactility

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

It Will Get Lighter

its good

bro i read nothing in my life

which magnetises chains of pins

have you read

isaac

plato

god being the centre magnet

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

what do you think my name is

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

the site i am dreaming