it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Rain, starting

autonomy of learning

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

isaac

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

i love it here

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

what do you mean

as in

we can only engage in such a way

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

kind of mythopoesis

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

all that is to say

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

but really the thing should be autonomous

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

but i respect your search