propensity within someone

autonomy of learning

its good


i really havent

what do you think my name is

ahnaf abrar

i was tempted to lie about my name

It Will Get Lighter

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

like first name

sorry i am texting like a slav

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

thank you

i love it here

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

its performative

magnetises a pin

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

The only real Londoner remaining is old, bitter, kept around for entertainment, defined by tropes from 30+ years ago. They play gangsters in films, or they work in a pie and mash shop, or they go on Business Insider's YouTube channel to tell you about their crimes. And they somehow still find the time to spend all day hanging about cafes and pubs for you to bump into, to remind you of Real London.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

...

i have read not even 1 book

as in

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine