Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
that looks like my instagram account
i dont understand magnetisation
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
brb i will read and reply sincerely
and the fake qualifier
i really havent
i love it here
fw
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
yeah
"Put a blanket."
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
I catch him on his way to the bar, telling him about this old racist failed actor that I'm avoiding. That I'm failing to confront. I get the sense he's avoiding people too. We get our drinks and find a corner. We chat for a bit. He's managing just fine.
After I get away from the old racist failed actor, I go to see my Korean colleague. He's just arrived in London and I want to see how he's handling the party. We'd been invited as fresh meat for some of the older, gayer attendees. We aren't aware of that.
Thank you, Jack, for telling me I'm just as bad as the characters (actually they're people, if that means anything to you) that I'm writing about.
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river. I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the dim silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank. They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
Lift Analysis
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.