the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

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autonomy of learning

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

hiding from the rain

brb i will read and reply sincerely

It Will Get Lighter

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

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something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever


Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

ion

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

sorry i am texting like a slav

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

no i haven't really read anything

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

yes

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

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