we need to be deconstructing our identities

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

brb i will read and reply sincerely

like first name

lol

not their contents

i see a website

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

autonomy of learning

propensity within someone

but really the thing should be autonomous

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

all that is to say

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

"No, it'll get cold!" "Put a tut ahh put a-"

i love it here

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

magnetisation/form

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17