Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
really i want the internet
it is hopeful
i am quite illiterate on producing technology
i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
in a post. I want to be remembered
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
god "possessing" artists "possessing" people
idk