confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

we can only engage in such a way

like first name

i understand

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

ahnaf abrar

send your tumblr

much more tactility

so at the end

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

idk

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.

as in

He went in there with a camera to film it before he moved out of the building. He didn't think anyone would believe the story if he didn't have proof.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

you cannot feed someone truth

fw

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

...

but really the thing should be autonomous

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

I am below everything.

i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse


Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.