Today I felt like starting

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

Better Lift

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

in a post. I want to be remembered

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

we can only engage in such a way

no longer writing in the third person

It Will Get Lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

Worse Lift

much more tactility

kind of mythopoesis

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful