a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

Lift Analysis

i have read not even 1 book

this will be about a slug

we need to be deconstructing our identities

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

yeah

barren land

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

was it worth it

whats your name?

ahnaf abrar

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

It Will Get Lighter

ion

i really havent

Worse Lift

I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.

The Hatton geezer (fuck off) is emptying his pockets, searching for the silver rizlas he apparently has. He refuses to take one of mine (also silver) because the tobacco I'm giving him is already too much to ask. He tells me about the guy who can do 50g of Golden Virginia for a good price, the guy who every other man over 50 knows. I'm not interested.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

like magnets

The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

i want to do that too

There is a pretty persistent ambient hate in England, a lot of people say vile shit about Muslims or immigrants or whatever, but in my experience most people aren't actual white supremacists. They have a black friend who they get a beer with. One of the good ones. Etc.