As I'm trying to tell my Korean colleague / fresh meat that this is abnormal, that most people in England aren't like this, the host of the party emerges from the bathroom to a roar of laughter and applause. He's a fat middle aged Frenchman and he's changed into traditional Indian dress and a turban. He looks fucking ridiculous. I try to back away, to avoid the inevitable photo of me in this moment that will one day appear to ruin my life, but everyone is crowding around, trapping me in the middle of it.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

It Will Get Lighter

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

so at the end

you have a beautiful account btw

currently

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so an active mazelike process

is this you as well

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

i understand

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

Worse Lift

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

your feed looks like my tumblr

bro i read nothing in my life

autonomy of learning

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

yeah