nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class
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is this you as well
feel you
autonomy of learning
you cannot feed someone truth
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
currently
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
not their contents
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
I am below everything.
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.
Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.
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yeah
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
lol
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
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