was it worth it
all that is to say
so the method has to be autonomous
its good short few pages
so at the end
no longer writing in the third person
I am below everything.
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
lol yea
god being the centre magnet
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
its good
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
fw
division of reality is straying away from it
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
yeah
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24