ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
we want to live the knowledge too live the content
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
a version of this existed for a
few months last year but it
was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important
as the content, that structurally each
piece in relation to each
other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry
class
It Will Get Lighter
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing,
etc.
the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully
and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book
i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge
management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty
cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about...
whatever
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
