wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

as in

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

its good

i understand

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

much more tactility

autonomy of learning

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

its performative

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

lol yea

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

so the method has to be autonomous

It Will Get Lighter

division of reality is straying away from it

i have read not even 1 book

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

like first name

barren land