nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Style

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

you cannot feed someone truth

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

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as in

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

so an active mazelike process

yeah

I am below everything.

Better Lift

is this you as well

kind of mythopoesis

no like which do people call me