Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
but i respect your search
so an active mazelike process
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen.
I go inside.
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned
and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre
of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
It Will Get Lighter
but really the thing should be autonomous
Today I felt like starting
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording
of his website, something that could be found within it
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged
Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent
real but its very manifestation
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate,
but I can't
really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
,
I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it
out.
wow, you are the first
stranger to write a textwall to me
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
what do you think my name is
1
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry
class
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
