currently
no i haven't really read anything
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given
It's
dusk
in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.autonomy of learning
Lift Analysis
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
is this you as well
thank you
send link
no longer writing in the third person
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
Can I see
abrar?
whats your name?
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
all that is to say
magnetises a pin
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
yes
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
god "possessing" artists "possessing" people
no like which do people call me
Another Frenchman pushes through the crowd to join him. He's an events organiser who I'd met earlier, and he's holding a large box wrapped in a bin bag. They're the fireworks he'd smuggled in from France the night before. They're Industrial Grade, whatever that means for fireworks.