Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

currently

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

yes

really i want the internet

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

so the method has to be autonomous

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

it is hopeful

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

all that is to say

There is a pretty persistent ambient hate in England, a lot of people say vile shit about Muslims or immigrants or whatever, but in my experience most people aren't actual white supremacists. They have a black friend who they get a beer with. One of the good ones. Etc.

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

Lift Analysis

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.