as in

ion

its good short few pages

magnetisation/form

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

feel you

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

is this you as well

It Will Get Lighter

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Thank you, Jack

so at the end

we need to be deconstructing our identities

lol yea

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

no longer writing in the third person

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

Lift Analysis

hiding from the rain

i was tempted to lie about my name

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

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is everyoneback on tumblr now

was it worth it