idk

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

its performative

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

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like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

you cannot feed someone truth

feel you

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.
part of an old note. It will get lighter.

as in

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience. 

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It Will Get Lighter